I lay here tonight not knowing what I want to talk about with my readers. All I can think to say is, “I want off this crappy rollercoaster.”
I am nauseous. And tired. And lonely. I feel like, lately, life has been that constant uphill climb. That slow draaaag…full of anticipation and exhilaration.
But…that next part…where you lift both of your hands up into the air over your head as the wind rushes past and your scream catches in your throat while your heart races in the best way possible at every turn…where you have blind faith in the flimsy seatbelt restraining you from what would surely be a fatal fall and you get lost in the terrifying pleasure and speed and freedom…
Well that part…never comes.
All I want is peace and serenity to envelop me. I don’t need amazing highs and I despise the unnecessary lows; I only seek stability and happiness…I crave the blessed mundane! I don’t need never ending excitement – I need only a partner who is loyal and honest and funny that can appreciate cuddling with me as the snow piles up outside. What better way to spend a frosty night – than cuddled up with your favourite human.
My advice today (to you AND myself) is to try and enjoy the ride. It is short and terrifying. Just close your eyes…and fall.
